For part of the week I don’t have my children living with me (Shared custody), and it is on these days that I struggle with loneliness. I have no friends or family (in another country). I lost my friends through my recklessness when I was going through a breakdown/manic high (this recklessness has left me with criminal convictions). So with everything that has happened I am sitting here, alone, in my cell known as home.
I have tried walks and hobbies. The problem is my hobby of reading requires concentration, I don’t have any concentration so I cant enjoy a good book. I have also tried just binge watching Netflix, which is great but not a healthy way to get through my days. I even look forward to my meetings with my doctor, just so I can talk to someone. Recently, I started writing to a pen-pal in the USA and that was a great way for me to talk with someone who is going through similar mental hurdles, and then my concentration has put a stop to that. Don’t worry Angela I will get some letters back to you soon.
My question is for all you lonely people reading this blog, how do you do it? What things do you do? What am I missing. Its not like in the 80’s when you could just walk down the road and make a friend, then play some football. Sigh…how it’s all changed.