My thoughts over the past few days lead me to believe that I could have some schizophrenia tendencies. Even when I look back on the past few years I see those tendencies.
The main culprit is losing track of reality and having voices not my own in my head. I often believe the world is going to end and just a few survivors will be left, me being one of them. This is a common idea that floats throught my mind, as is the thought of an independence day type attack in which I am central to helping them solve the problem. At all times its the other me, the other voice in my head that comes up with these stories.
Then I wake from my daydream and release I am still here.
Anyone familiar with said delusions, could be be schizophrenia, I see my psychiatrist in about 10 days so I better tell her.
All the while I will just plod on one day at a time, surviving, not thriving.