It starts for me with my thoughts racing, my lithium induced tremor starts to get worse and I start to have a need for coffee. Usually, an hour or so later I am in a manic episode.

Now this weekend for me will be a rapid-cycling one, firstly because I am in court on Monday for being naughty while in a manic episode. Secondly, I am working a few ambulance shifts which push my mood into slightly manic, in a place were I am just on the tip of mania where my mind is at its most prime. This is is my good place.

On Monday morning when I am due in court my moods become quite rapid, one minute I am fully manic, the next deeply depressed. I guess the situation triggers a traumatic response in my brain.