So after having to see my psychiatrist I have been placed in a respite care facility so I can be monitored I guess and have access to somebody 24/7. The facility itself is an old motel, the main building were I am located has four rooms and around this main building are a number of self contained units. The place has a homely feel and not a hospital feel which is nice, as I could have easily ended up in the hospital.
This place also give me my medications. My psychiatrist has added lorazepam to my list of medicines while I am here. This medication is supposed to sedate me and help me remain calm and not have suicidal thoughts. This is all new to me and I am pretty scared even though I am putting on a happy face. Deep inside I am rotting away.
But when you hit rock bottom am sure the only way is up.