It appears that I am now at a stable point in my Bipolar, thanks to the combination of lithium and olanzapine. Being stable though doesn’t sprout happiness for me, it reminds me of how crap my mental situation can be. When I am stable I tend to become lazy and sit around doing mindless things, such as watching movies. I also have less extreme bouts of cleaning. Today I organise the garage, cleaned the house and sorted the kids room. The issue is that I don’t have the mania energy, so I will clean one ares then get bored and take a brake.

Add to this stability I have put on noticeable weight around my hidden abs. I also experience more depressive thoughts when I am in this stable state.

Sometimes I wish I could like with mania, just take away the destructive part, is there a medication for that? Wouldn’t that be awesome!