I have hit the factory reset button on myself today.
This morning is going to represent the first day of my life. Why?
Well for the first time in a long time I have woken up after a good nights sleep feeling normal, not manic or depressed. This feeling of calm is new to me, I don’t often get to spend time with calm, instead I usually spend my time with mania or depression.
So while I am in this calm I think I will drive out and spend the weekend at my girlfriends. She lives 105km away, which isn’t too bad as it only takes me about an hour and a half to get there. The drive is very picturesque and if you’re a Lord of the Rings fan the drive is nostalgic as I pass through Hobbiton. The weather appears to be holding up well too, which will make it easier to drive through the Kaimai mountain ranges.
My final destination being Hamilton. Hamilton is one of the larger cities in New Zealand, it’s larger than the city I am living which is Tauranga. Hamilton is landlocked while Tauranga is a port. Tauranga is know for its long pristine beaches and sub-tropical climate. We get now snow and very rarely frost here, which sucks because I love the cold and snow because being from Northern England originally we get used to the cold.
So in ending I finally believe that the medications are starting to work, I just hope it’s not because I have had, and continue to have the man-flu. That would mean that 800mg of Lithium and 10mg Olanzipine are effective treatments for me.
While writing this I was also pondering the following question:
If you could hit the restart button on your life, would you, why?