From reading series like Lord of The Rings, Harry Potter and Game of Thrones. I now spend my reading time struggling to even read one page of an eBook. Even picking up a good paperback that I am desperate to read is becoming a struggle. I love reading, but that love for reading has a barrier in the way, that barrier is my concentration.
Over these past few weeks I have come to notice that I am unable to concentrate, it sucks. I have picked up endless books, started to read the first chapter, enjoyed the first chapter but never get back to finishing the book. My mind is racing, my eyes are playing tricks on me (Letters change colours on the page…weird) and my brain wants to do something else.
I believe this to be a symptom of my bipolar, particularly when I am in the manic phase. Which further leads me to believe that I have been manic for a number of years.
Today I am going to try and read again. I have picked up a book by James Islington called The Shadow of What Was Lost. I am hoping that this time it will be different, now that I am on lithium and more importantly olanzapine, which in theory should help me relax and have better concentration.
Now it’s time for me to read, hopefully read, who knows what my mind will do. I am desperate to start reading again!
Over and Out, I will update you shortly with how it all goes.