Couple of things that I wish I knew earlier.
1. Finding the Right Medication is an unpleasant Adventure
What a rollercoaster ride! There are so many medications out there that it simply becomes trial and error, with lots of blood tests along the way.
2. Mania isn’t all its cracked up to be
Don’t get me wrong I love the high energy, happiness and crazy thoughts I have…But spending thousands of dollars on random things isn’t all that cool. Well it is at the time, just not when the mania is over.
3. The vivid dreaming
Lithium and Quetiapine combined have given me a sort of sleeping superpower. Positively, I sleep very well. Disturbingly, the dreams and nightmares you get are well… Something else.
4. Rapid cycling is frustrating
During times of stress I tend to cycle rapidly, very rapidly. Wake up in the morning with mania, clean the house, organise everything including the fruit bowl to folding all my clothes. By midday I am in a depressive mood, I close the curtains and hide away in my house. Then an hour later back to mania…It’s so unpredictable.
5. Sex drive
I find that my Bipolar lends me to believe I am a porn star, all I want is sex, followed by sex with a bit of extra sex for safe keeping. I have heard that lithium can lower your sex drive, only time will tell.
So these are just a few things that came to mind. I am in the mania phase at the moment so please excuse the post if it doesn’t make sense.